The Bookmark No. 51
On time, routines, and vivid dreams
Happy May! I’m so happy to be back writing this newsletter each week. I’ve been slacking on my journaling routine and these newsletters are always a reminder how much I like to reflect on the thoughts swirling through my head.
This week, as I tried to get back on schedule, I slept HARD each night. I had some of the most vivid dreams I’ve had in awhile. When I was a kid, I used to try to force my brain to have the dreams I wanted. I’d go to sleep each night, squeeze my eyes shut, and start telling myself a story with visuals I created in my mind. I don’t think it ever worked, but I used to feel a certain giddiness at bedtime each night, knowing I’d get to drift off the dreamland of my own making.
After enjoying a taste of Summer while in Charleston last weekend, coming home to a week of raw, rainy weather wasn’t exactly the most motivating for me. On top of that, my office is completely overrun with unread books. I am so lucky to be sent so many books, but I am often asked if I read everything I’m sent. The short answer is no. The long answer is that I’ve been having decision fatigue when it comes to choosing my next read because there are so many options.
I feel time slipping by so quickly and I don’t know how to slow it down. I used to feel like the days were endless, but now that we’ve all returned to our fast paced lives, my head is bogged down with noise.
One of the most beautiful aspects of my long weekend away with friends was that it felt so.long. I still woke up early, had time to read, laughed extra hard, stayed up late, cooked, hung out. We explored and ate great food and had amazing conversations. It was the best weekend!
I miss that endless feeling of time. I’m so grateful to be busy and have a full schedule, but I know my creativity is suffering by not having enough time for it all. I don’t want to give up any of the things that I love, but I am really struggling to find time.
Days used to feel so long when I was kid. And then when I went to sleep, I extended the twenty fours of the day with these dreams I tried to trick my brain into dreaming. We can’t stop time, but as the days are longer and my schedule lightens up in the coming weeks, I want to live in the now and let the days feel long and full of possibility again.
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Have a great weekend. Keeping dreaming!
Until next time,
Phoebe
